You Know You Have Done Too Much When...........

Louis Nizer

Holy Moly, Mackeroly!! You know that you have done too much when a bath wears you out!

I know that I am guilty of rarely listening to my own advice and that I continue to push onward and upward, no matter what, just like my mother did, but sometimes I  wish that I would say, "I just can't."   

It is not in my nature and it is the most difficult part of living with CML. I want to be who I was before; the person that could just go, full steam ahead, and have no repercussions. I don't want to get fatigued, I don't want the nerve pain to flare up, I don't want nausea to keep me up all night and I don't want to feel as though my body weighs two tons every time I take a step. I would also like to be able to breathe.

I want to do what I want to do, when I want to do it, without paying the piper. UGH!

Here we are, four days from leaving on our six week trip to Europe, and what do you think I am doing? Packing, preparing, resting?

Nope!

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We are renovating one half of a little duplex that we own. The kid that "came with the house" when we bought it a few years ago, abruptly decided to move out. Bad timing, no doubt, but what are you gonna do?

So, we have been spending ten to twelve hours a day CLEANING, painting and replacing flooring. I seriously do not think the child owned a cleaning rag, or even a roll of paper towels the entire time he lived there.

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The filth was astounding, and I am exhausted! The one positive thing is that he did not actually damage anything, and his kitty was a good kitty; no pee anywhere, so for that, I am grateful.


We are nearly done, and pray that we can get it rented before we leave, but if not, at least it will be ready to go when we get back.

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Sometimes it is difficult to know what the "right" thing is, and whether or not life choices, such as owning a small duplex, an hour from where we live is wise, or not, so I just keep muddling through, just like everyone else; CML or not!

I feel very blessed to be alive and to be able to have the opportunity to own a small duplex, which allows me the luxury of going to Europe for six weeks.

I may be exhausted, frustrated and totally overwhelmed, but I am also grateful beyond measure.

"I know of no higher fortitude than stubbornness in the face of overwhelming odds."
 Luis Nizer

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